September 30, 2012 11:06 AM EDT
Once I actually start playing the game (leaving helgen) I am going to go to the Talos shrine at Falfreath, Find my dead partner, read the letter 'thalmor orders' and only then will i know of the betrayal etc.
When I am in Helgen I am just a regular Thalmor. There is no anguish because the event has not occurred.