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Sorry, Y’all

  • Member
    March 24, 2018

    A few of you might have noticed I deleted all my blogs and some of my posts. Long story short, I had a massive panic attack on Thursday and freaked out. My stories have a lot of me in them, emotions and hopes and dreams, so they’re natural scapegoats when I feel like my world is just closing in around me. Which is what panic attacks feel like, for me. So, I deleted them and I was planning to delete all my accounts and everything, but my husband came home from work and figured out what I was doing. He’s seen me in a not-so-good state before and knew what was going on, so...

     

    There’s lots more that went into why I deleted, but it’s a lot of personal and life drama, so it’s nothing anyone wants to hear. Just wanted to say to anyone who was reading and wanted to continue, I’m really sorry. I haven’t yet gotten to a place where I want to reload, but when I do, I’ll let you know. And a special apology to Karver, who had the bad luck to ask me one simple question that afternoon and instead, got hit with a shit-ton of crazy.

     

    And also, I’ve talked with a few people since then, and since I’ve gotten past the lying in the dark and listening to Nick Drake and Elliott Smith portion of the breakdown, I feel a little stupid about doing something that rash in the first place. But what’s done is done, and hopefully it’s something I’ll learn from. 

     

    Again, sorry. 

     

    *Insert embarrassed-face emoji in your mind’s eye since my tablet is incapable of it.* 

     

     

  • March 24, 2018

    Oh goodness. I was wondering what was going on. I won't pry into your personal affairs if you don't feel like sharing, but I'm glad you're doing better. Life drama is seldom pleasant to deal with. I hope you'll bring those blogs back when you feel like it - the Story Corner is a richer place with you here.

  • March 24, 2018

    While I will admit I have not read all or even most of your writings, I do regret not reading more of them now, because the ones I have seen were of good quality. 

     

    Hope everything improves for you.

  • Member
    March 24, 2018

    A Shadow Under the Moons said:

    Oh goodness. I was wondering what was going on. I won't pry into your personal affairs if you don't feel like sharing, but I'm glad you're doing better. Life drama is seldom pleasant to deal with. I hope you'll bring those blogs back when you feel like it - the Story Corner is a richer place with you here.

     

    thanks! there’s a couple of major things that tipped it, I think, that aren’t too personal to share. We’re waiting on the army to tell us if we have to move halfway across the world in a couple of months. And my parents are starting to deteriorate, and it’s just not a good time for me to move halfway across the world. Among a couple of other things, I’ve just been tipped headlong into a vortex of insecurity, and then anxiety kicks in. Usually I can see it coming, but for some reason this one just hit out of nowhere. 

    i’ll probably take a couple of days off from writing in general and then figure out what I want to do. Thanks again. :)


  • Member
    March 24, 2018

    Loopdiss said:

    While I will admit I have not read all or even most of your writings, I do regret not reading more of them now, because the ones I have seen were of good quality. 

     

    Hope everything improves for you.

    thanks, i’m doing much better now. And don‘t worry about reading. When I’m in a logical place, I look at stuff like that and realize there’s so much to read here, and people only have so many hours in the day. of course, illogical anxiety me takes it and stays up all night until my eyeballs hurt making “ways in which I suck” charts and analyzing stats and things. I’m like this guy, except I’m a woman and don’t smoke. Imagine the cigarette is coffee or wine. 

    but thanks, really. :) 

     

  • March 25, 2018

    ilanisilver said:

    Loopdiss said:

    While I will admit I have not read all or even most of your writings, I do regret not reading more of them now, because the ones I have seen were of good quality. 

     

    Hope everything improves for you.

    thanks, i’m doing much better now. And don‘t worry about reading. When I’m in a logical place, I look at stuff like that and realize there’s so much to read here, and people only have so many hours in the day. of course, illogical anxiety me takes it and stays up all night until my eyeballs hurt making “ways in which I suck” charts and analyzing stats and things. I’m like this guy, except I’m a woman and don’t smoke. Imagine the cigarette is coffee or wine. 

    but thanks, really. :) 

     

    Ah yes, I've seen this picture. Somewhat similar to your situation, I deleted my story, because I felt like my writings were too boring for someone to read when they could instead be reading something from an actual good author, such as yourself.

     

    I'm relatively new here, and compared to all you long time writers, builders, etc. I'm practically just a child, but I want to be able to contribute more to this community, so if there's anything I can do to help let me know. 

  • Member
    March 25, 2018

    Ah, shit. I'm really sorry this happened to you, I know how it feels to delete all your work! I really hope you can make it through whatever problems you're encountering and I owe a massive thanks to your husband! If he hadn't got home from work, the Vault'd be missing ilanisilver! Anyway, best of luck, trevan. I hope you can get back to a state where you're ready to either repost or write something new, and until then, jai'do di sharra trevan di ahziss.

  • Member
    March 25, 2018

    Loopdiss said:

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    Ah yes, I've seen this picture. Somewhat similar to your situation, I deleted my story, because I felt like my writings were too boring for someone to read when they could instead be reading something from an actual good author, such as yourself.

     

    I'm relatively new here, and compared to all you long time writers, builders, etc. I'm practically just a child, but I want to be able to contribute more to this community, so if there's anything I can do to help let me know. 

     

     

    well, I’m obviously the last person to tell you not to do that, since I just did it. But i will say that I read somewhere, I think it was an author’s blog, that your stories are always boring and predictable to you because you are the one writing them. And you know every twist and turn. No one else does, though. So maybe it’s not boring to them? 

     

    And thank you. What you’re saying really does help, so there you go. And if you ever want someone to bounce ideas off of, I’ll definitely read or listen. :)

     

  • Member
    March 25, 2018

    Wulfhedinn said:

    Ah, shit. I'm really sorry this happened to you, I know how it feels to delete all your work! I really hope you can make it through whatever problems you're encountering and I owe a massive thanks to your husband! If he hadn't got home from work, the Vault'd be missing ilanisilver! Anyway, best of luck, trevan. I hope you can get back to a state where you're ready to either repost or write something new, and until then, jai'do di sharra trevan di ahziss.

     

    Thanks! :) I’m feeling better now, and I really appreciate you guys‘ thoughts. I’m very glad my husband stopped me, too. 

  • Member
    March 25, 2018

    Welcome back!