Outwit Myself


  • Outwit Myself

    Mumblings of one of the residents of Shivering Isles



    How long has it been, friend?

     

    Too long.

     

    Years, won't you say? When we were young and naive.

     

    You were, not me. You were always the weak one.

     

    I was powerful, but afraid. Afraid of the dark, of spiders, of storms. Of everything we can think of, right?

     

    Yes. Weak. You should have embraced it.

     

    And so I turned to the magnificient power of Illusion. I started small. I convinced myself the darkness went away, I removed the spiders from my sight, I blocked the storm's sounds in my mind. But it wasn't enough.

     

    One can't stop being a coward.

     

    You're right, friend. Which is why I began casting spells that blocked my fear, locked it in a cage deep inside me.

     

    But that didn't make the fear go away. It was still there, rattling the chains and bars of its prison.

     

    It worked at first.

     

    At first, yes.

     

    But over the time the fear was only getting stronger and the spells weren't enough.

     

    So you started casting stronger spells.

     

    I did. I thought I could outwit myself, outwit my own mind.

     

    And then it happened. The cage was torn apart.

     

    As was our mind. I created-

     

    ME!

     

Comments

7 Comments   |   The Sunflower Manual and 6 others like this.
  • Sotek
    Sotek   ·  August 25, 2017
    An I thought it was bad enough bottling up emotions...
    This reminds me of a quest in oblivion....
    A man creates a set of tasks in his dreams? He ends up getting trapped there?


    Great story Lorc. I will add this during the...  more
  • Paws
    Paws   ·  August 20, 2017
    A Jekyll and Hyde thing going on: The greater the attempts become to cage the fear, the bigger that beast becomes until it is strong enough to break its cage and run. Good stuff!
  • A-Pocky-Hah!
    A-Pocky-Hah!   ·  August 20, 2017
    Dunno if I should consider this man as mad, or just high on skooma.
  • The Sunflower Manual
    The Sunflower Manual   ·  August 20, 2017
    You outwit your own mind but you used your mind to outwit your own mind because it's your mind so then what's doing the outwitting?
    • Legion
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      You outwit your own mind but you used your mind to outwit your own mind because it's your mind so then what's doing the outwitting?
        ·  August 20, 2017
      My interpretation was that the rational mind tried to not only outwit the emotional mind, but control it entirely. The lesson seems to be that attempting to use magic to cage fear, or any animalistic response for that matter, results in the two becoming d...  more
      • Karver the Lorc
        Karver the Lorc
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        My interpretation was that the rational mind tried to not only outwit the emotional mind, but control it entirely. The lesson seems to be that attempting to use magic to cage fear, or any animalistic response for that matter, results in the two becoming d...  more
          ·  August 20, 2017
        Nailed it. :)
    • Karver the Lorc
      Karver the Lorc
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      You outwit your own mind but you used your mind to outwit your own mind because it's your mind so then what's doing the outwitting?
        ·  August 20, 2017
      Drugs? :D